I'm really grateful that I have been able to experience SXSW for three years in a row! This signifies that I've also been in ATX nearly 3 years...OMG! It's actually only been 2 years, 5 1/2 months; but will be three years in October. That's a long time (relative to my life). Being in one place this long brings reflection and questions to my mind.
I am satisfied in life right now: it is niether dull nor exciting. I am almost used to the calmness and stability, although still seeking a "groove" where a healthy, normal routine is established in life. (By this I mean working out regularly, eating better, and maintaining my yoga/meditation practice.) I am trying to find the Tao in my life: the middle way, where nothing screams of extremes. While I have relentlessly fought this need for sedentary respite, I have welcomed this period of lassitude and indolence. It's been a nice break, but it has extended for too long of a duration. The struggle now is to overcome inertia and habit, and move back into a life full of movement. My knee is 98% healed and functioning at 100% capacity.
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In other words, how can I embrace where I am now, and yet make my way back...or is it impossible go back? Do I even wish to return? That is the opposite of growth. I would state, rather, that I would move forward to the next phase that includes habits I have held dear all my life and those same habits to which I clung for sanity, health, and well-being. I am confident that as I continue to pine for an active lifestyle, visualize it, think on it, and write out my goals, that it will--when the time is right--come about. My overarching desire is to be healthy and free of injury, and once again, enjoy those activities I adore with such fervor. I can see it all again, vividly. It's right there; I can touch that life. It is not yet beyond my grasp. In fact, it seeps into view along with this this brilliant sunlight that turns a grey murkiness into the bright blue sky of morning sunrise!
Every day I move toward my desire. I AM GRATEFUL for what has passed since I left Korea-- what was the date? October 14th, 2014?-- and what life has become NOW. I AM GRATEFUL for what is NOW. I have veered off-course from the original intention of this post, but as usual, as in life, it's always in the right direction.