Suddenly, and with relief, sanity entered my bedroom and my heart, as if it was a physical presence. I relaxed and let go of my irrational fear of 40 years from now. I realized that I was, once again, living in the future, of which I cannot foresee and have little control over! My epiphany was to stay grounded in The Now, and be fully engaged in The Present Moment, for there, I am not alone, or lonely, or seeking, or lacking! In The Present Moment, everything, Every Thing is always okay! In the Present Moment, I sit here typing and drinking a deliciously steamy cup of chai tea and tap-a-tap-tap on my keyboard. Why be worrisome of the future and miss out on The Now. Why worry about being lonely when I'm not lonely now! Why think of a future of seeking when there is nothing to seek, Now?
Yes, the answers come at odd times, and 5AM isn't my favorite, but it's better than Never. And now, it's time for that second cup of chai. Yum!