"Your true self is not a belief or thought of abundance, your true self is the recognition of who and what you essentially are. The aim of the meditation is not to give you thoughts and beliefs to bring you money, it is to awaken a recognition of your unlimited ever-present awareness so that it reorganizes all lines of physical and emotional support in your life. Self-realization manifests abundance in life from the recognition that your true nature is the source of all support and abundance. When you know and feel that your consciousness is abundance, then you will find that support all around you. Initially, until you are fully established in that self-awareness, that support may vary from one day to the next as you reported. But as you relax more fully into your real self, it becomes steady and reliable.