Oh how I am grateful to have my energy back to 100% because I have needed it this week! I managed an anxiety-provoking meeting at work—without anxiety! I responded to some harsh criticism with grace and understanding—instead of weeping! I have had to do some extra research and paperwork this week: an hour before school and several hours afterward, skipping dinner twice and getting inadequate rest—and I have survived and although I’m a bit tired, I feel okay and my mood is good. Amazing what a normal life you can lead when your body’s biochemistry and hormones are at normal levels, and your nervous system is not in a constant state of alarm! I am grateful for system regulation! I am grateful for friends and groups on FB across the world who offer advice and assistance! I am grateful financial abundance so that I can carry out the tasks ahead of me and achieve my goals! In fact, I am grateful that I am sooooo close to achieving TWO MAJOR GOALS!
Wow! I just realized that—I’ve been telling everyone else about it without taking it in, that I am about to achieve two major life goals! In fact, despite all of the struggle the past 3 years... I have achieved many goals! I have worked hard to attain teaching certification, which I did. I worked even harder to get a great job in a progressive school, which I did! I have worked even harder and harder to modify my teaching approach to meet the needs of my students and learn more so that I can be a great teacher, and an effective and compassionate teacher—-I did, I have, and I still am!!!
Damn, you done good, G!
In all of the muck, I had forgotten who I was and who I am, I had forgotten that I excel at what I do, and that I am a great teacher and PERSON! It’s an epiphany to struggle through such a dark stage—that lasted for so damn long—and finally glimpse light. It’s even more awe-inspiring to step out into that light, and realize that it is blinding, and that the light actually emanates FROM ME!
Thank goddess I found my way back to my SELF! I missed me! :-))