I am grateful for friends who remind me to work on acceptance and flow. I am amazed that some people are taught to accept the ups and downs and not fight agains what is occurring in life. Somewhere along the way, I learned the opposite, and so am having to unlearn a lifetime of struggle and fighting against What Is. I was both taught and conditioned that if you struggle and fight anything in life, if you are strong, you can overcome it. I have always been strong, and have always overcome all obstacles. But now, my strength wanes and I tire of the fight. I see that it is easier to float along with the current rather than stroke against it furiously--uselessly. Yet, my ingrained behavior pattern and mental processes initiate the Push Harder Reaction. I even struggle against that too, in irony: struggling against struggling. It's laughable. And, so I continue to unlearn and learn anew, undo and do over, and do again. I work (there it is again, but it does take an effort on my part) to accept rather than fight against whatever occurs. I seek wisdom that will help me remain on the path of going with the flow. I seek balance and ease and satisfaction.
I am grateful for the self-awareness that it takes to make changes in my behavior, thought processes, and emotions. I am grateful that I keep moving toward equanimity, in time, without struggle.