I decided--and wrote-- last night, that I wanted my day to easily and happily; I would arise early enough to do some writing and reading, exercise and meditation, and ride my bike to school. I would have fun with my kiddos and, rather than being stress-free (impossible), I would manage the stress well. I still have loads of anxiety around work, but I'm lucky in that I love my school, our model, our parents, our staff, so that has balanced out the anxiety. All I can do is my best for my students and let everything else go. And have fun!
I am nervous about riding my bike though; I'm out of shape and wondering how my knee will hold up. It feels near 100% healed and I don't want to re-injure it, but I have to get back on my bike and get back to running--my body has become too, too fat and too, too weak.
But I'M GRATEFUL to be FEELIN' GOOD today, thank goddess, it's such a change to wake up and be happy and feel good physically and emotionally. Actually, the change has been waking up and feeling the opposite. Waking up happy and anticipating a great day is my norm. I want my norm back!
I'm also grateful to my friends who love and support me, my family in FTW that does the same, and my wonderful school family.
Plus, I made braised lotus root banchan yesterday for the first time!