There has been a shift in me the past week: I have been more assertive, less anxious, and less stressed out. I have slept better, and been happier at school. There are many contributing factors to this shift, but a prime factor is agency. I have finally had the agency to take some action, and thus, have been in action. Sleeping through the night to awaken feeling rested and energetic is a major change, along with my physical body not being in a constant state of alarm... both of these contribute to a general sense of better-being. I had the flu, but recovered quickly--unlike the last winter's pattern of repeated illness and being down for a week. With my nervous system re-approaching a level of regulation, rather than dysregulation, I have been better able to manage the latest work drama (not like that ever seems to end anymore, sadly). I feel less reactive and freaked out, in simple terms. My personal sense of agency is returning, enabling me to regain power in my own life, and thus, get life back on the track that leads forward toward fulfillment.
I am grateful for the return of my sense of motive-power, which brings with it hope, confidence, resilience, ability, and agency!