I'm so grateful to have energy again. The last year was so hard with my physical--well, all my energy levels--dwindling and dwindling. All I've been able to do the last 3 or more months (I've lost count), is come home from school and crawl in bed to read or watch KDramas. I can't express how difficult it has been to just get through each day without any energy: each day I have yearned to feel good, to think clearly, to exercise, to feel motivated... I was using everything I had to make it through the day and do well at school. Consequently, I am soooooooo grateful to feel energy returning! I, who have been robustly healthy and vibrant all of my life, have had an extremely difficult time in feeling lackluster and overburdened by ennui. Although I have known for some time that the basis of my ills was something physical, it's been challenging to find the cause. To admit that I need something beyond acupuncture and massage was even more difficult, because these have always worked for me in the past. In essence, although there are many things going on, what's helped the most is medicine. I will continue with acupuncture and alternative medicine, as that also helps, but my body chemistry needs a prescription for balance, and so be it. I'm grateful that I figured this out, that I can admit it to myself, and that there is a solution for me. That in itself is huge: that there was a solution to the problem. Before, I felt hopeless that I would ever, ever (!) feel good again. The future looked dark. But now, I feel a return to the light, and by goddess, it's warm and bright!
...is practicing gratitude every day for 365 days. Began on April 22, 2016, let's see how life changes over the course of this next year!