I am trying to direct my thoughts to focus on positives and healing thoughts, rather than focus on how bad I feel: the fact that my lungs are healthy and strong (after all, I've been a runner most of my life), the fact that my lungs will adjust and clear out all the pollutants, and the truth that I need to give my self and my body time to adjust (as my friends and co-teachers here keep reminding me!) The air will continue to clear during spring and summer, while my lungs and body learn not only to purge the pollutants but defend against them. For me, I must hold fiercely to the thought that the feelings and reactions I am currently having will NOT last forever. I do tend to forever-ize circumstances, especially if they are negative or if I bring fearful thoughts into the equation. Luckily, I am surrounded mostly by positive and supportive people who are encouraging me to rest and take it easy; who remind me of the unavoidable adjustment period, and my work schedule allows plenty of time for rest.
I will be okay, if I remember that I will be, and that this period of not-feeling-good will pass. I also need to remember to give myself permission to take it easy, and allow myself time to adjust to life in China in all areas. I want to focus on the good parts, of which there are so many! After all, everything is pretty good here in China; the only down side really, honestly, is the air pollution! And once again, the government is making huge strides to reduce it! I will count on the rest of the year being better, and next year as well. Right now, I will focus on rest, hydration, allowing myself to take it easy, and all the good aspects I am experiencing... more on that coming up!