As though I had never seen them before!
We are not graced by stars in Chengdu
For we are cursed with the grey skies of poisoned air.
Mesmerized by their glimmer,
A clear morning sky of the most sharp black
Suddenly made itself known to me;
Darkest midnight blue engulfed in the black of pre-dawn,
A triangular constellation of three
Parenthetical to the quarter-slice of white, creamy moon.
As I gazed, I felt a deep yearning for nature--
Of which I am deprived daily.
There is no frequent shining of sun,
There is no greenery above or earth beneath my feet.
Instead I am trapped by concrete, noise, and all the grotesque forms of humanity.
I have known, but not accepted, that I need Mother Earth;
Not just periodically interspersed with a polluted daily life,
But I need nature every day!
In that moment, as I cried tears of sadness at my loss,
I knew: it is time to leave the grey dirt of the city
And reside in warmer, cleaner, clearer climes.
I want to look up and see stars!
I want to look down and feel the earth under my feet!
It's time to leave Chengdu.
I Saw the Stars and My Tears Fell
©2019 Regina J McMurray
(composed at 5:30am while waiting for Chakra meditation session to begin.)