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Although it is not the "New Year" just yet, it feels like a time of ending and transition and new beginnings. I can say that what I want for 2016 is that it be a helluva lot better than 2015; but I don't want just a degree of improvement, I want it to be 1000 times better, I want it to be the best year ever! I want to recapture and surpass the joy you see in the photo below. I don't want to return to past joys, I want to create new fantasticalicous and superkalifragilistic experiences this year. I have the opportunity to start over, and build anew from the ground up! Perhaps that's the lesson from this year(s) of struggle: the break down and destruction and peeling away was to birth my life fresh, recreate, and start raw. How many get to start over? Is this a blessing? I think so.
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Embrace the dark, the same as I embrace the light
Allow the wave to wash over me
Sink and let it pass
Submerged in the darkness, the surface will appear
I will learn that this darkness is also a gift
Note to self: In the future, when the darkness comes and the struggles seem insurmountable; remember, even the bad times are cyclical. I've survived the toughest of times and always come out better for it; the difficulties do finally come to an end, and there is always light at the end of the tunnel. I can survive anything. Hard times pass, too.
After reviewing the subjects for the 3 state tests I need to take, I've decided to TAKE ALL THREE EXAMS over the course of the next 30 days!
I have finished studying for the Prof. Ed exam, just need to brush up on a few items, so I'm scheduling that for this coming Monday Dec. 7!!!
I've finished all studying for the Gen. Knowl. Exam (which is 4 subtests: Essay, Engl Lang Arts, Reading, Math) except for math. I'll finish math, take the sample test, and then study the areas I need to strengthen, to take this exam on Dec. 17, 10 days after first exam.
Finally, my Subject Area exam: (Elem Educ K-6th gr.) which is also 4 subtests but has the greatest amount of material to know, I will take last, on either Dec 29 or 5, which is 11-18 days after test #2. This will give me all of Xmas break to learn everything you have to teach Elem. students: English Language Arts, Social Sciences, Science, and Math.
I will then be FINISHED WITH EVERYTHING I NEED TO COMPLETE to earn my Florida Teaching Cert. and I will be a "real" teacher with MANY JOB OPTIONS.
Since I'll be on a roll, if I'm in for more self-flagellation, I will also take Biology and Physics subject exams, this is to make me more marketable and because I want to teach science!
Finishing all three required exams by January will put me out on the market and I will once again be free to live where I want and do what I have set out to do, and finally, have accomplished this goal! I will be qualified for a $50K per year teaching post in Abu Dhabi with tax free salary, free accommodations and more, or pretty much anywhere in the world that I would like to live and teach: Caribbean, Asia, Europe, South America... ANYWHERE!
I didn't realize I was this close and capable of finally realizing this goal! Yay! I have hope again! I can stick it out with subbing for the remainder of the school year, because come February, I CAN WORK AND LIVE ANY DAMN WHERE I PLEASE!!!
...Small actions in a dynamic system will trigger vast and unexpected changes