I sat for a long while.
I sat unmoving.
Suddenly, I remembered to breathe.
I thought for a long while.
It was painful, those thoughts, those acknowledgements.
I saw before me the screen of reality,
it was not what I had wished,
It was not what I lived
I believed an opaque dream
Misguided by my own hopes
I deluded myself into acceptance
And as I placed my feet firmly on the ground,
I felt for once, the painful reality
As the granite found into my flesh, I felt the Mermaid
Unsteadily, working from sea to shore,
The pain was overwhelming,
but the curiosity so great
My feet bleed as I walk forward
Can you walk these stones?
I cry out-- but desire the change
I stumble and no one is there to offer help
It is pain to move into a new world alone
New air, new earth, new life, new birth
I look down
The stones are red.